Goodbye my Dr Proctor…

9 Jul

It’s time to come clean and admit that I am in love with Dr Matt Proctor…

There are all sorts of reasons why this is a very bad idea. Firstly, it’s totally unrequited. To compound that particular misery, he’s gone, I will never see or hear from him again, and all I have are memories of the brief time that I knew him. Secondly, and probably more importantly, he’s not real…but my emotions (and my hormones) don’t seem to realise.

Love at first sight...

Proctor is probably not anyone’s idea of their perfect man, carrying around all that mysterious baggage as he does. He has had serious health problems and major issues with commitment. And, of course, a job that very probably leaves him fit for nothing much in the few hours he has to himself.


So, what’s the attraction? I confess that I find him completely fascinating. He’s enigmatic, he’s quirky, he’s extremely accomplished and inspired, and far from being a stereotypical cold, arrogant senior doctor, he cares deeply (in a very British way) for his patients and his team. His problems with his health and his subsequent change in outlook and determination to live life to the full (including dangling dangerously off tall buildings) have left him with a killer hint of vulnerability.

The day it all changed

That same new outlook, that comes from having stared death in the face, has given him a certain wisdom, a perspective away from the here and now, and yet he doesn’t seem completely content. Ultimately, he remains tantalisingly unknowable. He also looks and sounds just like Jeremy Northam. I think you understand…

Paper pondering

Luckily, during the brief time that I knew him, we experienced a lot together and so I have many memories with which to console myself for his loss. I was there when he first, suddenly and inexplicably, appeared at MT1, tanned, tall, slim and beautiful in his fish t-shirt. I think it was love at first sight…


Since then, he’s made me laugh…always the way to my heart…

A fine romance?

and he’s made me cry…

I'd let you treat me any way you want...

…and my love has grown stronger.

The last time I saw him, it was up on the hospital roof (a favourite Proctor haunt), with his patient, releasing a duck which flew away into the most beautifully sad and meaningful sunset. It’s an image that will stay with me for a long time. I wish he could have turned round to say goodbye, and we could have shared a last, long and lingering look, but it wasn’t to be…

I think my heart may be broken. Farewell, beautiful, mysterious, funny Dr Proctor. Though you never knew me, I won’t forget you…

If you are similarly afflicted, please feel free to share your favourite Dr Proctor moments…it’s a well known fact that talking helps!

by henrysmummy2003

with thanks to Joan aka HazelP for screencaps

UPDATE: I have had confirmation today (11 July) that there WILL definitely be an on-demand DVD of Miami Medical. More news later this week.

21 Responses to “Goodbye my Dr Proctor…”

  1. Gayle Cooley July 9, 2010 at 7:01 pm #

    I am hopelessly in love with Doc Proc too. I figure I can keep him alive for an indefinite amount of time in my fantasies. Of course, in those fantasies, there’s a woman in his life!

  2. Vicki Hopkins July 9, 2010 at 7:39 pm #

    Let’s get to the heart of the matter…I’m hopelessly in love with Jeremy Northam and this is killing my face time with the man! Sigh…

    • henrysmummy2003 July 9, 2010 at 7:49 pm #

      Sigh indeed…what are we to do…? Let’s hope Jeremy is sympathetic to our plight…

  3. Paula Hartt July 9, 2010 at 7:58 pm #

    I thoroughly enjoyed this sitcom but because of the poor judgement of CBS I won’t be in a hurry to catch another one. I am saddened to be left to what they think is good or entertaining. If watchership is down, they need look no farther than their decision making at its finest.

    • henrysmummy2003 July 9, 2010 at 8:00 pm #

      You’re not alone in feeling that, Paula. CBS should not have cancelled this show.

  4. Mary July 9, 2010 at 8:09 pm #

    Thank you for loving look at Dr. Proc. Er has crept into our hearts

  5. katie July 9, 2010 at 8:12 pm #

    Favourite Proctor moments:

    From the pilot,while working on Javier who had had a hand amputated:”Given the patient’s positive attitude,let’s make sure he has a lifetime of ambidextrous masturbation”

    Javier:”That’s actually the hand I use”.

    (any other show would have played that scene for laughs or the “ick” factor-or both.But it didn’t seem to phase Proctor one bit)

    Proctor showing up at Trauma One with a hangover and asking for a saline IV and Warren having to start it.

    Among others. ๐Ÿ™‚

  6. katie July 9, 2010 at 8:40 pm #

    I’m feeling it today too, I keep having to remind myself Miami Medical is not going to be on. Not only that, I kept expecting to see ads for this week’s episode and then it’s like “Oh yeah”. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

  7. Jennythenipper July 9, 2010 at 9:38 pm #

    I taped the show and didn’t watch it right away as I normally do, on Saturday morning. I think I waited till late Sunday before I finally broke down. For me the hardest part was coming to the end and not seeing any previews for next week’s show. Then there is that sad, flat moment after the show ends when the station cuts to the local news bimbos and himbos and it makes the world see all the more vacant and banal with Doc Proc.

    Thanks for all the lovely pics and the all the blog posts. This was a fitting end to the show, I think. I don’t buy that you could really roll a hospital bed out onto the roof without causing all sorts of trouble, but it was worth it for the image, wasn’t it?


    • henrysmummy2003 July 9, 2010 at 11:14 pm #

      Thanks Jenny. I agree, it was a fitting ending. Beds on roofs…possibly a no-no, but well worth it, yes!

  8. katie July 9, 2010 at 9:55 pm #

    LOL It’s funny,I wondered about the hospital bed, too-that took a bit of suspension belief but yeah,it was a great image.

    • henrysmummy2003 July 9, 2010 at 11:16 pm #

      I was too busy howling by that point to be wondering…!

  9. Deb July 10, 2010 at 2:01 am #

    Sweet! Couldn’t have said it better myself!

  10. Martina July 10, 2010 at 7:25 am #

    Jeremy Northam is always able to give great expression to his roles and was very convincing as an trauma surgeon, practical also as theoretical. I think he always gives his best and his “Herzblut” at work and takes his profession very serious – look at the result! You are right, Gill, in this part he was to fall in love with him. The series were great, loved them, never a dull moment and never “Kitsch” as far as I can say (as a German, sometimes I lack the words, sorry).

    • henrysmummy2003 July 10, 2010 at 9:14 am #

      Thanks Martina, I agree, no matter what the role, we always get a great performance. Now we wait to see what he will choose to do next…

  11. LauraP July 10, 2010 at 6:31 pm #

    Thanks for a lovely send-off for our DocProc, Gill!

    He had me from the moment he appeared in his Phish t-shirt and sealed the deal when he made that paper airplane.

    Feeling pretty broken-hearted here, too. *sob*

    • henrysmummy2003 July 10, 2010 at 8:17 pm #

      You’re welcome, Laura ๐Ÿ™‚ He was a darling, wasn’t he? *sob*

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